The Game of Self Expression

I've been avoiding you. 

Blogging has been a battle in my brain lately. It's a puzzle to decipher what to write about- what's considered too much information, what's too little, what parts of my life I should advertise and what parts I should keep private. I'm in a peculiar position for a blogger because I see most of my readers every day, which makes having this online diary especially awkward. 

Blogging is also hugely about documenting the fun stuff you do and talking about it. The thing is, though, that I don't go to many events or parties, I'm not usually found hanging out with friends. 95% of my day is spent by myself. It's class, work, my internship, homework, and the ever-so-precious alone time that I depend on so heavily to keep myself together. College is such a temporary isolated type of living, I always feel sort of slopped together in a whirlwind of deadlines and running from place to place. It's a sordid mixture of being very, very busy and then suddenly having nothing to do, which makes for boring blog conversation.

That said, I spend a lot of time thinking about art, projects, and more than anything at all, The Future. Those things are so personal and specific, and not exactly good table conversation. It's a puzzle, then, deciding what to share and what to not share. I'm supposed to be recording my life, but my life is just a cocktail of homework and errands. In the meantime I hide inside my own head, stirring soups of inspiration and daydreams.

But how do I explain those things to you? 

love, rudi 

Birthday Party TIme!!

Party Party Parties!!

This past weekend me and the gang had a big birthday party for each other- three of us have birthdays in December and January, so we decide to have a big party for all of us! 

We had super big plans for our party- we were going to make a giant fort in Megan and Kasey's apartment, dress up in fancy costumes with lots of "jewels", and play lots of games.

We ended up having to hang up scarves on the walls due to the apartment's lack of high furniture to tie sheets to. Courtney and I did wear our matching prom gowns that we bought at the Theatre Department's costume sale a few months ago, Morgan made an amazing homemade veggie pot pie, and my mommy had ordered fancy spancy cupcakes from Bijoux Cupcakes in town!

Let's talk about those cupcakes. Holy my macaronies, they were sublime! They were s'mores cupcakes (for our fort party!) filled with melty chocolate and marshmallow cream, and topped with graham crackers and a chunk of Hershey's and a big roasted marshmallow. We tried eating them without looking completely disgusting, but it was soon clear that they couldn't be properly enjoyed that way. 

They were so good. They made me make crazy faces of glee.

love, rudi

My Birthday!!

YES! 

Not much else to say about that. Except 

MICAH

the BAKER

at STAMPER COMMONS CAFETERIA

made an amazing cake today.

And it happened to have a giant R on top!

For my reader that asked about the food at Stamper, not only do I have a *killer* post coming up talking all about it, but just know- these people care. And they listen. More on that later :)

MICAH MADE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL CAKE I HAVE EVER SEEN!

Also, in other *GREAT* birthday news, Joel was here this weekend. Some of you may think he is my boyfriend- and you are wrong. He's even better than a boyfriend- he's a friend's boyfriend. That means me and Courtney (The BFF) get most of the benefits of a boyfriend without any of the downsides.

Not that my boyfriend has any downsides. He's like, perfect.

But you get my point.

We love seeing Joel, and since he goes to school out of town, it's a wondrous and rare treat to see him! Also (and we love reminding him these days) we hadn't seen him since Halloween so it was a triple treat!

There are other photos from this awesome, frozen-yogurt-getting day, but that's a whole other post (coming soon!) that includes an entire story about dogs with strange and vibrant personalities.

So far my day has been an absolute treasure! And now I'm going to keep enjoying it while eating this giant gingerbread R and watching Modern Family. 

Best show ever, by the way. 

love, rudi